Thinking out loud in my head

There are so many thoughts running through my head right now that I can't sort them out.

• I am thrilled not to have to go to work in what was a death-dealing environment..


• I am depressed at not having a job and not knowing what to do next - and how I'm going to manage.


• I am so sad at not being able to work with some extraordinarily wonderful people. I am missing the "network"of like minds that supported each other in that aforementioned environment.

So much for "I" - what about the "Thou"? God is good and he closes doors and opens windows - or other doors. I believe that, but living it out is most difficult. This is certainly a time to get my head and heart straight. I'll certainly have more time for prayer - will I use it?


I have been besieged with a procrastination issue for almost all of my adult life. I do think that it is part of the "one-ness" of my Enneagram status- I hesitate to start something that I can't do perfectly.


But God sanctifies my imperfection and graces me with blessings galore. This loving God takes me as I am and loves me anyway. I guess I should attempt no less. Sigue adelante! Full steam ahead with God and friends beside and in front of me and behind me.